It’s Between You and God To Sort Through How My Words Make You Feel

Have you ever read the book of Jonah in the Bible? I have shared many times and with many people, over the years that God has called me to write my story. I want to be obedient and share what He wants me to share with the world. Honestly, I have a lot already written but none of it feels quite right so I’m not sure exactly what to do with it. I think part of the reason it doesn’t feel right is because I have always written with a filter. I’m afraid of what people will think of me, if they will see me, and even interact with me differently. And at the real depth of it, I’m afraid of how it will affect some of my relationships.

Jonah didn’t want to go to Nineveh and he certainly didn’t want to share the word of God with them. But God didn’t ask Jonah how he felt about the people of Nineveh or their lifestyles. He simply told Jonah to go. Just like Jonah, God has simply told me to go.

The hard truth is that there are people in my life that cannot possibly handle the hard truth of my story. So, much like Jonah, I’ve spent a long time procrastinating, and just plain running away from what God told me to do. Sort of like when you have company coming over and you really don’t want to clean your whole house so you hide the mess in a closet. Thank God I have a friend who believes in my calling fiercely enough to call me on my excuses. Much like the sailors called Jonah on his.

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” –Maya Angelou

The burden of my story is getting heavier. It takes a toll on me having all of these words whirling around in my head like a tornado. They are all consuming. So, for the benefit of my mental and physical health….buckle up buttercups.

This is my story and how my words make you feel is between you and God.